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woohoo!
i finally got mi dream crankset!

Profile race cranks!
ok well i bought it 2nd hand at S$130 but it was black wif loadsa scratches.

so i hadta do a whole makeover on that crankset.
Azhar supplied me with the spare bolts. (thanx dude!)

and ive rawed the crankset.
SHINEY WHINEY!

so here is how it looks now.



=)
so happy.

eh!
i still have gotta book mi BTT.
hahaah

Live It Up

ok well i was bored.
so here's a few tests i did.

Whats Your True Colour?

Black

Your color is black. The color of night. Serene and mysterious, black conjures up images of elegant evening gowns, dashing tuxedos, and gleaming limousines. Traditionally a symbol of success, black also represents power and an uncompromising demand for perfection. Not surprisingly, you tend to set challenging goals for yourself and do whatever it takes to achieve them — your strength of character is second to none. This unfaltering determination, along with your natural elegance, impresses people. But keep in mind that your personality might be intimidating to some. Try to temper your demanding side with a little softness — trust us, it won't kill you. Overall, though, black is the color of professionalism and achievement, which means it's clearly the color for you.

Why are you still single?

Don't Want To Commit

Once the blush of first love wears off with your partners, do you get a little antsy? You probably crave excitement in all realms of your life, and you need a relationship to keep you filled with possibilities. Let us guess: Someone has probably told you that you haven't quite grown up yet, that you're still holding out for the perfect "whatevers" (job, car, home, date) in your life to come a knockin'. Or perhaps you're just having a difficult time accepting that your comfortable little place in this world is always growing, always evolving — and that means you have to be willing to accept big life changes, too. Not that there's anything wrong with that. After all, you're probably a lot of fun to be around and may be the life of the party.

But when it comes to settling down, you leave without looking back twice. Now's the time to ask yourself: Why? What's holding you back? Maybe you don't want someone to get to know you fully? Perhaps by saying "yes" to someone, you're afraid you'll lose yourself, or the possibility of something better coming along. Just remember that the best relationships are those that never stop growing. That's something you can identify with, right? So keep that in mind next time you find someone you're really comfortable with. You never know, it may prove even more exciting once you really get to know each other, teensy flaws and all.

Whats your secret to success?

Grace under Pressure

Even when the pressure's on, you manage to keep your composure and focus on the task at hand. When you're running late for work, the kids can't find their shoes, the washing machine exploded, and the dog is chewing the rug, you have an enviable ability to handle it all without letting your temper get in the way.

Calm, cool, and collected, you've got a good, level head on your shoulders. You're not one to get frazzled by life's unexpected ups and downs. While some might let stress get the better of them, you keep your eye on the task at hand and power through it. And that's what makes you excel at anything you try. You go!

Messed up

well...
i fumbled.

running into a wall blindfolded.
yeap.

& i fell duh!

haha.

as i said.
always look on the bright side of life.

=)

now i realli nid to ride badly.


smoking at home never felt so good.
had 2 sticks in the toilet right b4 bathing
the whole house smells of Winner now!

huha!
but hu gives a heck.

i feel more at home now.
and it made me feel better

Shagged

i woke up feeling realli shagged.
why seh?
not like i did aniting yesterday.

ok well besides that brief period of hyper-ness.
huha!

well.
thoughts still swirling in mi head.

im supposed to be marking mi student's papers (yes imma tution teacher)
but i guess i'll do that later.

hahaha.
doped.

thoughts swirling in my head.
& im so into you.

Messd up

& once again i find miself in a predicament




if only u knew
(man i sound emo)



messed up once again

Realisation

ive realised that previousli, i dun smile in pictures.
i onli started smiling just recently.

why eh?


and i dun like self-obsessed people who think that they're always right.
people hu tink that they're special.

well... everyone is to an extent.
but its the attitude.
yours just suck.

Legalized

yessah!

im legal!
if only the legalized weed.

hmmm...

tanx to:

imah (u wished me like 2 days in advanced)
matiin (3 hours in advanced!)
lala samurai (a day in advanced)
sharatul (1239am)
maria (1200mn)
wani floorball (1210am)

for the wishes
=)

Shaken

i woke up shaken.
thats coz i had the worst dream, ok wait, call it a nightmare.
i dreamt that it was alreadi hari khiamat.

i can still recall everything that happend.
so much fighting goin around me.
& strangely i was holding sum1 i wasnt supposed to.
she was dying.
isabella swan. yes she was.
i was holding her tight.
beside me was my mum holding mi younger brother. in front of me was my grandmother strangely looking so calm. she was peeling some onions but those onions dried up seconds later.

it was a frightening sight really.
everyone around me was crying. dying.
& i thought to myself. im sure gonna go to hell. i juz hope isabella doesnt.

comets were dropping like birdshit into the sea.
my grandma juz stood up and walked into the sea and disappeared.

this is the scary part.
a portion of the land suddenly tore apart and sank into the sea.
right at that moment, sum1 shouted, Allahuakhbar!

and that was the point of time i woke up
this is indeed a message from God. saying i shud taubat.

im gonna do so once i turn 18.
coz there's no point of doin so 2dae. niat dah takder.

but i must be strong. khiamat will come no matter wat.
& i must accept the fate. for now, sembahyanglah kamu sebelum kamu disembahyangkan.

tanda kiamat:

Diutusnya Rasulullah saw
Disia-siakannya amanat
Penggembala menjadi kaya
Sungai Efrat berubah menjadi emas
Baitul Maqdis dikuasai umat Islam
Banyak terjadi pembunuhan
Munculnya kaum Khawarij
Banyak polisi dan pembela kezhaliman
Perang antara Yahudi dan Umat Islam
Dominannya Fitnah
Sedikitnya ilmu
Merebaknya perzinahan
Banyaknya kaum wanita
Bermewah-mewah dalam membangun masjid
Menyebarnya riba dan harta haram

• 1 Asap
• 2 Dajjal
• 3 Binatang melata di bumi
• 4 Terbitnya matahari sebelah barat
• 5 Turunnya Nabi Isa A.S
• 6 Keluarnya Yakjuj dan Makjuj
• 7 Gerhana di timur
• 8 Gerhana di barat
• 9 Gerhana di jazirah Arab
• 10 Keluarnya api dari kota Yamanmenghalau manusia ke tempat pengiringan mereka.

Sugar, Spice & Everything Nice

& its a bad combo.
kinda feeling down.

but, always look on the bright side of life.
=)

Rafiq

yes he sux.

Spoiler

woke up in the morning and sum1 juz haaad to spoil mi dae.
the guy whom bought mi bars wants to return me the bar.

like wtf?!
i alreadi told him it non-refundable.
tsk3.

so ive decided to return him like 25 out of his 35.
its his own mistake too that he did not check.

lesson learnt.
pfft.

irritating.

Thoughts

sitting at home all dae makes mi mind wander.
wander aimlessly deep into space.

makes me think bout memories.
memories of friends.
friends that we're trying to reunite.
i look back but never regret.
despite the mishaps, hiccups, anger.
coz everything happens for a reason.

this post is gonna be full of pictures.
coz pictures.... shows a thousand words. (i tink.. sumting along that line)




Mr. Kang - the best maths teacher ever. (Grad Nite 2006)



13tHour - a band of brothers (Grad Nite 2006)



the fanatic times - i still remember sum1 tried picking a fight with me then (2006 bus No. 81)



Amir & Rafie - ignore the sign, they're sum1 whom i can always count on (2007 woodlands mac)



DARE 06 - A class full of very very smart slackers (2007 Calculus class)



Ubaid - quiet turn crazy ass Shit once he met us. =) (2007 SPRCD Clubhouse)



Goofballs - times we shared in club. the place we go when we skipped class (2007 SPRCD club)



Faris & Khai - lepak sessions we had at downtown mac. i love the ambience. (2007 Downtown)



Amir - sum1 hu knows how to have fun w/o tinkin of its consequences (2007 SPRCD Club)



Nana, Nazim, Me, Amir - times we had in the club. onli 4 of the 6 was left then (2007)



Emo - my emo days. (2007)



Emo - my emo days. (2007)



Faris & Nana - lepak session at fullerton. oh the memories (2008)



Nana - sum1 hu gets on my nerves. but nvr fails to make me give in (2008 Fullerton)



Nana - once again. (2008 Fullerton)



Nana - URGH! once again! haha (2007 Seesha)



Sharatul Ain - no1 knows me better than her. 11 years of friendship (2007 TM Starbux)



SPFB - the floorball team. looks can be deceiving (2007 Rayer)


Us - memories. both good and bad. but nvr apart (2007 seesha)



The boys - thru thick & thin (2007 seesha)



Us - whats left of us now. (2008 Fullerton)



& i shed a tear.
the song's not helping.

Cash

i nid money
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Definitions

Oppressed
- To keep down by severe and unjust use of force or authority: a people who were oppressed by tyranny.

Unfair
- Not just or evenhanded; biased

Happiness
- good fortune; pleasure; contentment; joy


you do the math. ive given up fighting.

Handlebars

I can ride my bike with no handlebars
No handlebars
No handlebars

I can ride my bike with no handlebars
No handlebars
No handlebars

Look at me, look at me
hands in the air like it's good to be
ALIVE
and I'm a famous rapper
even when the paths're all crookedy
I can show you how to do-si-do
I can show you how to scratch a record
I can take apart the remote control
And I can almost put it back together
I can tie a knot in a cherry stem
I can tell you about Leif Ericson
I know all the words to "De Colores"
And "I'm Proud to be an American"
Me and my friend saw a platypus
Me and my friend made a comic book
And guess how long it took
I can do anything that I want cuz, look:

I can keep rhythm with no metronome
No metronome
No metronome

I can see your face on the telephone
On the telephone
On the telephone

Look at me
Look at me
Just called to say that it's good to be
ALIVE
In such a small world
All curled up with a book to read
I can make money open up a thrift store
I can make a living off a magazine
I can design an engine sixty four
Miles to a gallon of gasoline
I can make new antibiotics
I can make computers survive aquatic conditions
I know how to run a business
And I can make you wanna buy a product
Movers shakers and producers
Me and my friends understand the future
I see the strings that control the systems
I can do anything with no assistance
I can lead a nation with a microphone
With a microphone
With a microphone
I can split the atoms of a molecule
Of a molecule
Of a molecule

Look at me
Look at me
Driving and I won't stop
And it feels so good to be
Alive and on top
My reach is global
My tower secure
My cause is noble
My power is pure
I can hand out a million vaccinations
Or let'em all die in exasperation
Have'em all healed of their lacerations
Have'em all killed by assassination
I can make anybody go to prison
Just because I don't like'em and
I can do anything with no permission
I have it all under my command
I can guide a missile by satellite
By satellite
By satellite
and I can hit a target through a telescope
Through a telescope
Through a telescope
and I can end the planet in a holocaust
In a holocaust
In a holocaust
In a holocaust
In a holocaust
In a holocaust

I can ride my bike with no handlebars
No handle bars
No handlebars

I can ride my bike with no handlebars
No handlebars
No handlebars

In A Daze

i woke up thinking that its alreadi wednesday.

hahaha.
bodo.

i fell asleep at 4pm while playing Final Fantasy 7.
and once i woke up, im at it again!

woohoo!

New Blogskin

as you can see, ive changed the template of this blog.
yes yes its boring but i rather go for the simple look.
=)

im a rather simple person so y not my blogskin vouch for that?
if uve read my previous post u would have know that i've created a blogshop!
huahuahua!

well for bmx parts only.



there you go. thats what it looks like.


currently im feeling very bored. GROUNDED!
fuck i cant ride.

so this is wat i do when im bored.

1. 20incho forum
2. my 2 blogs
3. FINAL FANTASY 7!

woohoo!
yes final fantasy!
a freaking good game.
amazingly.

till' then.
ride on guys.

New Blog!

well i created a new blog!

hahaha

its actualli for selling mi bmx parts stuff.
including mi friends' stuff.

www.khalis-khan-bmx-sale.blogspot.com

go take a look.

List Of PSP Games

here's mi list of PSP games. if u want any of the above, juz sms me ayte?

i will rate each game between 1-5 stars & a brief comment by the side
i havent tried some of the games (well there's 45 of em' how'd u expect me to play all?)

Digimon World 2 * graphics sux. gameplay too slow
Guitar Hero 3 ** i think this is the pirated one.
Guitarway To Heaven Amplified ** nothing compares to DJMax
Resident Evil Survivor **graphics sux
Ace Combat X ***not bad. good action. storyline short though.
Battle Over The Pacific **sumting like Ace combat X but its world war 2
Battlelines **very childish game
Bleach 5 ** gets bored easily
Call Of Duty **** nice game. lotsa action.
Dave Mirra BMX Challenge **** since im a bmx rider, i might as well rate this high!
DJ Max Portable 2***** 5 stars!
FIFA Street 2** too simple
Free Running ***sometimes gets too frustrating
Great Battles Of Rome * dumbshit
Gundam Battle Chronicle *** gameplay and action is nice. but abit hard to understand.
Heatseeker **not as good as Ace Combat X
Infected **** stress relieve
Manhunt 2 ***** good gameplay and graphics. very realistic.
Midnight Club 3 Dub Version ***too simple. but interesting plot
PIMP My Ride ** graphics sucks. but fun game.
Prince Of Persia Rival Swords ** needs to use aloooot of brain power
Pro Evolution Soccer 2008 ****one of the best soccer games
SBK07 *** standard racing game
SIMS2 Castaway ** gameplay is very hard
SIMS2 *** easier than SIMS2 Castaway
Street Fighter Alpha 3
Street Supreme***very hard and challenging
Transformers*** graphics isnt that good. but gameplay is not bad.
Warhammer 4000 Squad Commando *** for Red Alert freaks. good game.
Winning Eleven 2008**** one of the best soccer games
Untold Legends
Burnout Legend ** gets abit boring
Chapas
Final Fantasy VII *****very good game. i never imagines i would be a final fantasy fan.
Diner Dash *** stress relieving
Fired Up
GTA Vice City Stories *** good gameplay. but not as good as GTA on PC
NFS Pro Street *** no comments
Patapon****very cute and fun!
Samurai Warrior
SOCOM
Star Wars The Force Unleashed ***** good graphics. action sequence. story is short. completed it in 6 hours.
StarWars BattleFront 2
Traxxpad * ive got no idea what this is for. its some music mix
WORMS Open Warfare

Yearbook

got this from Denan.
& i thought it was pretty cool.

hahah

Dead Sound

ive currently fallen in love with this song.

simple.
chilled.
fucking nice.

hahaah





Hear the sound of falling love
As I wonder where you are
Hits the ground with a dead sound
Know you ain't got far

Too stupid and sissy like
To say that you want out
You make the eyes of a million girls
And think you'll make them shout

Dead sound
Dead sound
Dead sound
Dead sound

I used to take you on every time
That sparkle turned to black
I used to drag you through my streets
When you came crawling back

Your cheap words that you bought on sale
Won't help you through tonight
You make the eyes of a million girls
And think that's what they like

Dead sound
Dead sound
Dead sound
Dead sound

And now you go through a million girls
And try to pick what's right
When nigtfall comes and you're still alone
Do you feel it deep inside

It's oh so cold on the other side
Where thoughts can turn you down
You make the eyes of a million girls
But I see no girl around

Dead sound
Dead sound
Dead sound
Dead sound

20th September 2008

ok. so here it goes.

red is wat i find unnecessary
blue is my argument

it all starts wif me meeting up the riders gg to town.
Zaf and nicholas was late, as usual. (u know ure pedals are loose, wake up earli and repair it ah)

so we left for somerset at 12.30 (an hour late)

so here are the ppl.
Me, Zaf, Joy, Reuben, YongQuan, Jerrer, Irfan, Nick, Nicholas.

so we played at somerset and after that decided to play street. i asked Zaf if he and joy wanted to follow me go eat wif my friends. we will continue riding street at night. so he declined the offer.

so i met up wif mi friends.
at round 1030pm i received a call from reuben saying they were already at Kallang!
like wtf?!

luckili Nazim and Baskhin was there to help.
i cabbed down to Tampines wif Baskhin where i met up wif Zaf, Joy, Yong Quan, Irfan, Nicholas.

Zaf was showing attitude and when i askd him why thru friendster, this was his reply.

you wanna know why?..recall what u say and what ACTUALLY happened..after somerset..the last time talked to about was at spc and was about YOU goin to meet ur friends.and all i did was asking u are u goin now..and after that i didnt even look at you..i was excited on riding street,asking irfan and nic whr is our next spot..NEXT,at the other spot,i went up to u,saying my pants tear,andu asked me whether im following u anot..i say no..turn around and went off..the WHOLE ENTIRE TIME U WAS WITH JOY..not with me AT ALL (recall him saying he was excited bout riding street. he was way infront. i was always at the back. and when we were at central, u were always wif Irfan and Nicholas. this is trivial.)..thats the reason why i was pissed(why the need? ure alreadi excited and way ahead) ..and u said i paitao u..like wtf..and u said i didnt call u..1st thing i dun ahve a phone with me (ruben has a fone, yq has a fone, joy has a fone)..2nd,all u told me u went buker with ur frens and asked to whether wanna join (& i also said aniting i call. aniting happens also u call)..3rd..worst ever,i was THE ONE who told reuben to call u,told the rest to wait for u awhile more,FUCKING vouch for u,and fuck this is what i get,fine, (fine this part i dunno)the part u say thanks to reuben for calling u,wah really cannot tahan..FUCK all he wants was the ciggarettes..seriously,yq told us you would call US (& i clearly remember telling him to call me if aniting happens)..so i thought fine..nvm..plus all along i was with them..LEADING..how the in the world can i get lost behind them..this what u told yq (u get lost behind them? YongQuan and Ruben was lost. they were left behind.) ..i was lost behind them and i didnt wait for u..im leading and im lost behind? doesnt makes sense right?..and why the fuck im the only one whos to blame when others are there with me..they making the decisions where to go..and i was the one to blame????..seriously im confused..why pick on me when other people are making the decisions whether to go or not?..ask u why me?(its becoz ure part of the TSS crew. all for one, one for all. u din know i scolded joy also right? at least he knows he was partly at fault)..u think back..since when reuben has ever call u if not for ciggarettes?..whos the one who has always been behind your back when u has problems with sheila,when u have to go somewhere, who followed u behind..where ever u want to ride,im cool with it..i followed..if nak ikut hati i wont be following today cause im too shagged..but because of u i went because i dun wans to dissapoint u or make u angry..when u asked me to play,i play eventhou i cant..think back. (this is ure bad. i alreadi told u super earli that we're gg town. its ure own decision to go woodlands and come back at 4am, not gg to sleep)

so there u go. matter still unsettled. so frustrating.

& im fucking grounded

Insert appropriate title

my day started out great.
but ended in a bad note.


shall update more tmrw

Stoked

& yes im stoked.
17th september was a good dae for me.
=)

tanx to riding.
i managed to pull off 180 down 3 and 4 steps!
woohoo!

and erm..
i hopped sp2?!
hahaahah

at least i attempted 180 down SP2 wif abit of rollback.
ahahahah

man im stoked.

well.
all good things come to an end.
mi mum juz said "tmrw go nenek house"
like wtf?!
i already told her that im gg out wif mi friends.. LAST WEEK

bilang tak bilang tkder beza.
pfft.

spoiler.

Bored

its currently 9.33am and im freaking bored.
so i shall post up those things like they do on friendster her.
den i shall ask ppl to do it
hahaha

1)Someone knocks on your window at 2 am, who do you want it to be?

- some mail man sending me a cash prize

2)Your ex boyfriends/girlfriends calls and needs a tire change, do you lend them a help?

- bicycle tyre =)

3)Ever seen a ghost?

- yeah

4)Do you love anyone?

- =( (looks so emo)

5)A person that you miss?

- =( (looks so emo)

6)A band/group you thought was cool when you were little?

- LinkinPark

7)Do you wanna have kids before you are 30?

- now, i dun even mind if i don't get married

8)Ever had a crush on one of your friends parents?

- hahaha. no!

9)Do you look more like your mom or your dad?

- ive got no idea.

10)If you could be with one person now who would it be?

- a multi-millionaire

11)Where would you like to be in 10 years?

- working somewhere?

12)Something you learned about life this year?

- take everything one step at a time. dun rush.

13)What do you want for your birthday?

- money!

14)Have you said I love you to anyone today?

- no

15)What did you have for breakfast?

- sahur.. erm... mee goreng and pepper kicks

16)How many hours of sleep do you get yesterday?

- add up otal bout 8hrs

17)What do you wish you were doing right now?

- riding

18)Ever had a black eye?

- no

19)Last person u went out with?

- riders

20)Last board/card game you played?

- can't remember

21)What do you think of Brad Pitt?

- no comments

22)Name a friend you have the most in common with?

- i have no idea

23)What color are your toe nails?

- pinkish

24)Last person you talked with on the phone?

- cant remember

25)Have you traveled overseas?

- yea

26)What movie do you want to watch?

- nothing at the moment

27)Whats your sisters name?

- Yati, Ayu

28)Do you have a crazy side?

- yeah

29)Where's your ex at and what are they doing?

- in skool i tink

30)Did u smile today?

- not yet

31)What can u say 'bout ur crush/GF/special someone??

- take things slow.

ok so that's done.
i hope those hu read mi blog will repost this.
haahha

*if ure as bored as me that is*

Bad Day

as i say, a day is only bad if u think its bad.
so i shall say that mi dae just did not go as planned.

i painted my room at ferz.
went out of the house to ride.
ended up i onli rode for like 15 minutes.

tanx ah eh!?!
and Zaf said "i will catch up wif u guys lata"
yah right.

and rafiq is so emo!
kener maki sikit pastu muker masam.
tsk3.
u din even help.
tanx eh?!

=)
on a lighter note, i got new gyro!
snafu mobeus!

hahaa
tanx to wobble.
its free!!

weeee.
at least i rode abit at night even wif slippers... jadi lah.

and i feel kinda empty these past few days.
sumting i had to do.
well... im sure she'll get over it.
i tink i will to.

and so i move on.

thoughts

& it had to be done.



gdbye my dear.

Tunes In My Head

lotsa stuff are plying in mi head.
yeah... alot.

currently its not the kind that i would usualli think of.
no its not about mi bike.

im the kinda guy that always looks on the bright side of life.
so i HATE these kinda days when im bored at home.
allows me to think deep thought and i hate that.... thoughts... reflections.

i go by the "law", dun make promises that u can't keep.
but im guilty of that.
im realli sori i left u. i luv u so but this is sumting i hafta do.
its for ure own good.
do not depend on me too much, its unhealthy and it won't make u stronger.

haiz.
hopefulli everything gets better. i won't be angry if u find sum1 better than me.
a chinese preferrably. its sumting that u nid.
=)

to end things off.
i luv u dear
even if u cant see this.
i luv u so.

Depressed?.

i wouldnt call myself depressed.
well mebe juz a whole hell lot sad.

i luv her but this is sumting i had to do.
for her own good.

and currently im feeling very very very hungry and bored.
bleargh.
fuck mi psp wif zafran.

make sure he returns it to me 2nite.
daaamn hungry

Disastrous

these past few days have been hell..

since mi blog isnt private animore i shan't put it here.
hopefully she's ok.

=)

mi bike is not by the way.
sucks.

1 month baby!

happy 1 month-sary to my babygirl.

i will luv u no matter wat. we're gonna get thru this.
*i know u cant see this but wat the heck*
XD

so 2dae was a super duper duper happy dae for me.
managed to see mi baby.

she gave me a card and a choker.
THE CARD IS SUUUPER SWEET!

i melted...
felt like crying...

AAARRRGGGGHHH....

and the choker.. i will wear it everyday...
ok except when i bathe and sleep.

after meeting mi baby, we parted. juz met for awhile to settle some stuff...
well.. THE stuff...
some of u guys may know.

so lets move on to riding....
kinda cool and fun dae...

managed another 180 down...
lemme seee...

180 down a curb.
180 gap a divider like thing at sports hall
180 down 3 steps at 107
180 transfer down a small curb
180 transfer down the divider thingy at starbucks TM.
almost vertical walltap to fakie at starbuck TM
the usual stuff like lawnmover eggplant fastplant tyre tap
abubaca to tyre tap
abubaca to tyre tap to tyre tap to tyre tap
hahahaah

ok so well i din pull off everything...
i onli pulled off those in red...
the rest... well..
MEBE NEXT TIME!
hahaahah


and the feeling of accomplishing a trick.
main reason y i started riding and im loving it.
=)

& baby, i luv u so much

Private

u guys must be wondering why my blog is currently private.

okay im gonna spill it.
mi girlfriend's mum gotta know bout our relationship.
she was totally against it. (malay & chinese can never be in a relationship)

i seriousli think that the statement above is bullshit.

now they're putting the blame on me saying that i made sheila that way and im ruining the family.

in a fucked up way...

wat they din know is that i was the one hu has been cleaning up the mess.
i helped sheila thru her studies, i helped sheila be a better person.

to make matters worse, sheila went to cut herself.
& now they're blaming me saying that its all my fault.

for goodness sake, the mum (fucking ugly auntie), warned her not to go out wif malay guys.
like wat the fuck?!
she likes malay guys and ure telling her not to do so.

ok so thats one matter.
moving on to the fucked up sister.
she's saying that im immature cant take care of sheila.

hu's the immature one shouting at me?
maturity doesnt come with age.
doesnt mean ure old ure mature.
this shows how shallow minded you are.

im gonna keep fighting.
im not gonna leave sheila.
make her leave me so that she will still be happy.

& im gonna fight on.